Full Circle [bis]

Yes, full circle. A breaking down cycle has come to an end, what needed to go because it belongs to the old, has been taken away. People have left my reality, events and experiences have been lived and everything has changed. It has changed so much, that the old is even closed off as a reality that I can be come back to, the doors are literally closed... no way to return.

I have changed so much, inside and outside, that my experience of reality is different from many on the planet. I have not regular job, not linked to any country, a wanderer, only having my luggage. Old friends are gone, and not many new ones have come in yet.

The abyss, the bridge, I am walking, unknowing of what any type of new future might bring. There is power in the choices of now, yet, it is in the unseen still, undiscovered as yet.

So, there is one choice remaining. After years of mind, spiritual mind, and emotional discharge, there is balance and a newness of being. In that beingness the powerpoint of here/now is paramount. Then the feeling of no-mind, non-judgment, not allowing any mind contamination from other people that still 'think' their life through, cherishing the social and spiritually social dramas, and absolutely remaining in the stillness of thought. Only being here/now and watching as things enfold.

The true reality, that really belongs to 'who I am' will come from within the stillness, not from the thoughtful chosen ideas. It is now that the clarity of beingness, without the clutter of mind, emotion and disbalance, will appear and show 'who I am'... and it might surprise me what I will see in my new-created reality....I will keep you up to date...

At this moment, it is processing the emptiness, the no-mind, the letting go of still some thinking attributes and some emotional luggage, the last remainders... and then settling, without anyone having to agree outside myself, for the true 'things', people, events and experiences that belong to this energy that I am.

Home ? Not 'out there' at all

After journeying in the spiritual world, the communities of spiritual people and reading all the spiritual works... I find now the time to land again with me, not with the words and scriptures of others, be them 'holy' or 'earthly', be them angelic, methaphysical, scientific, or just beyond mental comprehension.

The force of LIFE is everpresent, wherever I went, with whom I connected, encountering the greatest teachers, the worst enemies, and the most beautiful friends, I always ended up with myself.

There is something about the spiritual community on earth, it is quite .... removed from here/now... it is quite unhappy with the earth here/now... and it seeks enlightenment with others, out there... somewhere... in the dim lights of the mists, where it has no ground to land upon and ... the spiritual world remains where it is ... ungrounded... and no real coming home has been discovered in the fields of mystery, of enlightenment, of magical teachers and words from 'beyond'... not really.

They were all POINTERS, indications but none of them presented TRUTH of being here/now... YOU always remain ONLY with yourself, as the teachers, friends and enemies come and go.

There - where you are [I found] - is where the home is, there is no other place...With you is where the power of LIFE is, there is really no other power, and it is never with someone else MORE than with you, for you. Everyone has his own chosen universe, expressed or not here on earth.

HOME is ESPECIALLY not in the human spiritual world, where you are tempted to be drawn into as if TRUTH is only there... The only result of the spiritual world is to be only half here and only half there... until you choose to cross over to the spiritual realm... but I am not entirely sure that we are meant to be there - gone - with the thinking that HERE is not good enough, or expanded enough, or exciting enough....

So, after deep diving within realms that have had no real answers [and dim guesses, pointers, mystery], although almost only more QUESTIONS, I return just home, with me. It is all there is for me, there is my home... and at this point of my consciousness, it is here on earth, and from there I go anywhere and I return to who I truly am : a life force here/now, for the sake of LIFE, in honor of all-that-is, outdone of any complex ideas, labouring, and trouble. Simply.

Time to find a real house now, after travelling 3 years, homeless and like a troubled wanderer.

Courageous

Courageous, the one that finds that emptiness is the end of the road, or rather, the beginning of truth.

It takes inner balance and harmony to find that the world of form and movement is only an expression of that, what you are looking for : Your Self.

As such the world of expression is not the 'thing' that gives answers. More exactly it IS not there, quite literally, IT is exactly not there.

IT is where you cannot find it, not within the rules and laws of the world of form. It is beyond where it cannot be found.

What is beyond : you are.

It takes courage to face this truth, however it is simple, once it is accepted. LIFE flows from there on, simply. The zen heart knows, it has always known, the human heart discovers from the place of forgetfulness, but then again, with courage, continuity, determination, harmony, forgiveness the human heart will learn to become ONE with the zen heart, the divine heart of the strong 'human'.

Stillness from the 'soft-iron' movement of duality allows to find that 'golden' zen heart.

No Need to Understand

No need to understand. IT happens without knowing 'how' and 'why', all the time, continuous.

There is no worry, because IT knows who you are, what your most hidden needs and secrets are, as IT is within you, your inner essence, YOUR music, the original first thought that you are, your blueprint.

Because of that, it will wish you to become you again, in fullness of being, totality, so that you can safely come home. Why ? Because that is what you wish too, simple.

A silent yet awake ZEN mind hears this, sees this without learning it from books, it is instantly aware of the pathway to that place called 'home'.

The Activated ZEN mind is complete understanding from and to the silent space, the absolutely filled emptiness, that which is nameless in this world, yet the LIFE force here and now, that you are.

Smiling gentle, and watching, observing the painted scenery, the music that is being played and the flowers that grow, patiently allowing until your free will starts to see with clear eyes.

Practice of the ZEN Mind

From within the sacred stillness space

Stillness and silence are portals and those are trained and cherished in the practice of ZEN. This particular type of ZEN attitude is not linked to protocols, nor rituals, it is disconnected from peers, and concerns ONLY the sole practicioner, as it is in the sole blending of the personal frequency and the ZEN frequency that a new coherence will appear.

This cannot occur when one connects with other humans that have their own frequency and will as such, by that connection, alter your unique frequency.

You are invited to feel and know the above before understanding it with the mind.

As you will notice, any mind reflection on this, will stand in the way of truth.

Therefore any activation of the Zen Mind starts with allowing that you do not understand everything.

The Zen Mind/Heart

There is this space between the words, between the gaps of frequencies, the moment between the last audible sound in your ear and the next sound.

There, right there, when one gets the attention there for a focused moment, there is the other world.

That other world is also part of you, me, living things, and it is so healthy, so peaceful, zen, always there, everywhere. Activating the Zen Mind/Heart.

The Inner Nobility

Nobility – when internalized – is not a social status. It is even outdone of the outer structure and speaks a language that does not compare itself to any other but himself.

It is the highest form of noble attitude, as it is the most difficult to achieve. The hard work to become a noble person inside, without any recognition of it by any other than oneself, brings fruits of wisdom beyond the normal comprehension.

These values activate the cosmic wisdom, the intuition, the deeper knowings.

• He knows himself to be an eternal student
• He does not seek to enlighten others out of respect for them
• Will at all times recognize his inadequacy and his inabilities
• Understand that the true wisdom is seated in his soul-consciousness and seeks to rediscover that essence
• Knows that the voice of consciousness can only be heard in silence and withdrawal
• He leaves behind what insults the soul-consciousness
• Follows the inner guidance only, and ignores any other law that insults his consciousness
• Recognizes that intuition is outside of the frequential capacity of the logic mind
• Lives by the inner wealth-wisdom, knowing it can never be taken away
• Lives outside fear, doubt and despair, as he has accepted other values
• Understands that obedience and dependence divides, and that oneness unifies
• Knows that the path to inner nobility is narrow, without compromise and severe, however not difficult