well, okay now...
observing and monitoring
for years, for a lifetime
sometimes quietly, sometimes in conversation
~
I talked and I was silent
I watched and was blind
I heard and was deaf
~
Okay now,
deep diving in this world's emotions
and thoughts, desires and wishes
both personal and worldly
divinity and finity
~
Utlimately, after the pictures and colors
there is nothing left to discuss
one meets always someone else
that perceives truth differently
or is eager to have a fight to win the argument
this world goes positive and negative
and tires me, talking about peace in 'fighting for' organizaitons
wisdom and pure logic are far away
restlessness, trying to hurt each other
it never ends
~
so, okay now
I end it ~ here and now
~
there is peace in my music
there is love in my words
there is respect for self
there is silence in my attitude
there is joy in my heart
there is a flower emerging
~
and you know what ?
you, the so-called other, you do whatever you want
make your mistakes or not, be arrogant or not,
be bitter or not, blame others or not
be e-motional about everything, be unbalancedd
and reactive to everything in moments of doubt and
anger.... and dance on
~
I am leaving you to do what you so love
the suffering, the convincing, the noise, the wanting
the craving, the vampirism, the adoration, the conditional
~
okay now, I am integrating that energy
transforming it into myself into unknown potentials again
~
I am leaving behind, turning my back to all of this
silently, you will not even notice
as I have always done
~
The old is ending here
and a new beginning is coming
just as a lunar eclipse does
ending the old, the emotional old, the conditional old
~
and you, never ever approach me again
with your lies and goodbyes
it has been good now, I grant you all victory you so crave
take it all and indulge yourself
you lost me
and that might not even count for you
~
on the surface
I will forget you, but deep down the scar will remain
forever, I will live with it
~
Okay now, it's time to leave
I have done it, lived it and am done with it
the rest is up to you, and maybe one day
you will hear the silence again
and find what you really looked for
and then we might meet again
Zen Walker
~
